Fighter? hell no

i do realize that m no fighter. just a complete loser. i never please anyone. i never give anything enuff. to my mom, to u, to my boss. i never satisfy u. n i just let myself helplessly fall to the ditch where i belong long time ago. u dserve a happy life n i couldnt gv u dat. i thought i grew stronger but i was completely wrong. i never was. never be one.

i'll leave the space blank for u to fill if ppl ask wht happened to us. u can be creative and say whatever u want. i wont ever question that. n i wont bothering u anymore. ur dreams will soon come true.

Made-up no make-up

u made me thinking. deeply. how far have i gone.. how much have i gained. and how long can i stand. is it time to let go? am i ready?

heart like a pit

i think i got an emotion decrease nearing to a heartless homo-sapien.
i feel nothing.
i think i feel sad.
i wanna cry. but nothing come out.
i did something that pissed people off, but i don't feel the fear or guilt.
i still feel the anger in me, but it just lay in there..
i feel the happiness, but it's just in a while.. coz i know it won't stay long.

1 thing for sure..
i feel down~ down~ down~

Abort, Ignore, Retry?

Am i doing the right thing?
All along i convinced myself this is what should i've done long ago.
Then why do i felt like something ripping my heart from the inside from time to time?
I've got to be strong. I have to face whatever consequences that may come.

never look back, they say

mark the day
as it's time to close the book
it's time to let loose and let go
it's time to stop trying

hopes & dreams are set to be buried
close your eyes and open your grasp

coz u're not the muse
never once.

Not just a nudge

1 foot is outside the frame
just need a hand to pull the other out of it and another pushing from behind
Why can't i just do it myself?
Thought i'm stronger...

NOT!

Stay or meddle

If it's written that 2 persons are meant to be together, it doesn't matter how far they're separated. On 1 fine day, they shall reunite.

But, does sitting doing nothing will do justice to any of them?

Or they should just go on with their lives and let fate do its work?